A few weeks ago my cat became very skinny. She had always been a small cat, but this was even skinny for her. She had lost alot of weight very quickly. Her ribs and backbone were showing and to pet her, she felt like a wraith. She became very lethargic and not just acting like herself.

Naturally I took her to the vet, and my worst fears were confirmed when they told me she had tested positive for feline leukemia. There is no cure for feline leukemia and it's made even worse by the fact that it's contagious and I have 3 other cats at home.

The vet told me there was nothing they could do to help my kitty and that her liver had already shut down. She was put to sleep on july 10th 2007. I don't think I've stopped crying since then.

The others are going to get tested this week, I've decided if they do have the disease to allow them to live until they show signs of being ill. They are all acting fine, very active, they get into everything.

When I recover my senses and my strength I do plan to get a pet to replace Chloe, although no one will ever take her place. She was the first pet that was really mine and mine alone and not a family pet etc.

Anyways, I've taken it pretty hard, so that's why I just haven't been writing much lately. Hopefully I'll feel like writing again soon.